Lipgloss & BeerNo Drama.

Every night before I go to bed I switch my Blackberry to ring for phone calls only because I can’t sleep with all the emails coming into it all night long and all the late night booty calls. Ha, just kidding, although it HAS happened!

I don’t usually erase text messages in my phone but recently while in the waiting room at the doctors office I erased up to the last month. I save the ones I like, the ones that implicate, and the ones that remind me of things I don’t want to forget. I have a list of guys in there a mile long! Is that bad? I don’t know if it is but it is reality.

It goes all the way back to Mark…nice guy, met him in July when I was bored. I never really wanted to date him but we had great conversation…no sex…but he was nice, polite, got along with everyone and fell hard for me. Oops, I didn’t mean for that to happen. But all of a sudden he fell off the text list a few weeks ago. I didn’t really mind I am sorry to say, but I was curious. His excuse was something about not being able to afford taking care of his mother anymore so he was having her move in. I figured there was another woman and still don’t believe it was JUST his mom….but oh well. I am sure if I see him again we will talk as friends.

Then there is ‘James’, he has been in my phone for over 2 years. We dated seriously for about a year until he moved temporarily for a job. He never let me go and I have to say that even though he was much younger than me we get along great and can talk about anything. The problem is…he is WAY more into me than I am into him. Maybe it is the age difference maybe it is something else. He has never gone away and still wont. I love him but am just not IN love with him even though he wants it completely different and wont even LOOK at another woman. I on the other hand, think he needs to find someone young and willing to have a family with him – I am just not that person at this point. (Oh, and according to the text I got this moring he STILL isn’t going anywhere – yes, 2 1/2 years later and 1 1/2 since we broke up he is still a fixture in my Blackberry). I am sure I will dish more about THAT in future posts.

Next there is Jason. He is the ex husband of an old high school friend (and no, I never see her anymore). I ran into him several times when our sons were playing football together. He was asking me out but I just couldn’t commit to a date. I liked talking about the kids and complaining about my ex (the kids dad – Mike) since they work together. I finally went out with him a couple weeks ago for a couple drinks…good conversatrion, nice guy, kinda cute but weird that he was my old friends ex…not so sure it was the right thing. PLUS, here comes my honesty….he has a piece of crap car that broke down on the way to get drinks and he ended up having to rent one. Is it bad that I don’t really want a guy that has as piece of crap car when I have one myself? LOL! I went for drinks with him one more time about a week and a half later which was fun….it was just for about an hour before I had to go watch New Moon with my daughter and her friends at midnight. He wanted another date and suggested dinner and a movie. I wasn’t so sure he wouldnt back out of it like he did our very first ‘almost’ date when he told me he needed tires on his car and couldn’t afford it. Anyway, I let him plan the date…then I ditched him. Why? because I found out he had taken my OTHER high school friend out 5 times and then blew her off for me! Creep…he just text yesterday and asked me what happened. I didn’t really answer, I have better things to deal with right now.

Then there is Chad….my first love – my first EVERYTHING. We connected again on Facebook in May. He was divorced and living with a girl by Chicago but in short, they both lost their jobs, she moved to Texas with her family and he moved back here with his. I had been putting off meeting with him the whole time and then finally met him this week. He was almost exactly the same…not even that much older looking – still good looking! Weird. SO yes, I made out with him at the end of the night just to see how it was…I dont remember what it was like before but he was a good kisser now….he wants to see me again but he isn’t my priority right now. I am supposed to see him again tomorrow night though…we’ll see.

Okay, next is Brian….used to date him a little a few years ago before he moved to Vegas….we have a strange relationship…sometimes I hate him and think he is a dick but yet I love him to death. There isn’t much to say except that I found a $39 ticket to Vegas and am leaving on December 13th to go see him for a few days….will you hear about that? Who knows…after all what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas….hahaha

Oh shoot, there is Dan from high school too….he lives in Idaho but we have become friends online….I only want to be friends but he is starting to talk dirty….had to quash that one. haha

And what is it with exes coming back….just remembered the chat with Brad about the drunken booty call I got one night!! Haha…he was apologizing. Said it was okay, I understand and we talked and caught up for a while and then moved on.

Then there is my sweet Kyle who moved to North Carolina recently, he and I have always had a special friendship. I can say ANYTHING to him and that is really cool to have with a guy. I went to see him a couple months ago and had a blast! He wants to have sex but the fun part of our relationship is me saying no all the time! Just so ya know….I’ll miss him.

Then there is Joe…the ex 8th grade boyfriend that lives in Chicago who I have been seeing off and on since March. In a nutshell, he wants me to move in with him in Chicago. He owns his own company and is extremely successful and says he wants me with him and he’d take care of me. I wouldnt even have to work! To be honest, after struggling for so long, it would be nice. There are more reasons behind this, but I am really considering it…I am sure I will go into more detail later.

Then there is Drew. Uh, yeah…….he’s only 23 – and he just turned 23 last month! Yikes! (He could be my child if I had been a young slut – now I am just an old one! hahahaha) I met him 9 days ago and have seen him 5 times since then. This may be TMI but he is fulfilling my every lady need and then some……..BIG TIME! He is the only one I am seeing in this manner right now as I may TALK to other guys but I will NOT be with more than one guy dating at a time. I am sorry, but once the third date rule was over I had to pull an all nighter….I am sure some of you would be terribly jealous if you knew what I was experiencing with his fine young body so I will spare you….but let me say….I think I am addicted! Now I am trying to figure out how I will end it with him before I go to see Joe next Thursday and before I catch my flight to Vegas Sunday….

Oh, and then this virtual acquaintance I met on Facebook (a young good looking doctor) asked me out for tonight…said ‘Sorry, I have a date’ (with Drew) …then he asked about tomorrow (and I am seeing Chad for drinks). So he asked for Thursday….but I decided I needed a day off. He said he’d call me Thursday…ugh

I don’t think until I looked at my phone that I realized how many options I have out there….and I like every single one of those options in one way or another. What I think is….I have a problem letting people go…and I have a problem saying no. And maybe I am a collector! haha (and BTW, there were a couple other random names in my phone of exes and others just checking on me.)

Honestly, I am not sleeping with these guys…I told you about the ONE that I am having that kind of relationship right now (hubba hubba)….what do you honestly think? Why are all these guys in my life? I am NOT sleeping with them..even though some are exes and I have in the past…and why are exes coming back to me anyway??? I am not even leading them on for that matter. Not really anyway, I am honest and let them know I am dating others. Some hate it and some understand. I told Drew the other night I was using him for sex (kind of as a joke but I think I was just feeling him out) and he got upset…he wants to see me all the time even if we can’t be alone and I have only known him 9 days! Do you think it is the Puma/Cougar phenomenon? Why do I communicate with this many guys? Do you think I am looking for someone to date or dating a bunch of wrong ones so I don’t have to worry about finding the right one? The amount of guys in my phone the last month alone FLOORED ME! There were at least 10! I don’t have time for 10 guys. I am a busy mother and college student…how does this happen?